insomniphobia
hi there everyone. hope you are all well.

this is my first post on here, and i am so desperate.

since i was a child i have had a very serious phobia of insomnia. it really is serious and is destroying my life. i have done anything it takes to fall asleep and i always manage to do so. the problem that i have is that the fear is still huge and i think its getting bigger. it is so hard to focus on life and i have a family that deserve so much better than a father that is obsessed by this phobia. i feel like i haven't got the strength to go on sometimes and have recently been put on antidepressants. its such a mess and i don't know the answer or how the story ends. i have done cbt which was helpful to show me that the fear was a misunderstanding in my mind and i genuinely believe that no harm will ever really come from not sleeping.

the problem is that for some reason my mind refuses to let go of the fear and it terrorizes me so so much.
i feel so alone as i have never spoke to anybody that shares my phobia.

if you can help me in any way i would be so so grateful

many thanks

leithen1